Thursday, January 24, 2008

18 days in the hole....


Not feeling very well today - hope it's nothing more than a touch of indigestion....just would add insult to injury if I went and got the flu or something.

I've been stuck here for 18 days now. Yes, I've made forays into the world with hubby - went shopping last Sunday - but my weekdays are very restricted. I spend most of the day up in the bedroom...working, reading, sometimes sleeping. In the evenings I stump my way downstairs and watch some TV while trying to play with the pup a bit.

This injury has been a real eye-opener, showing me how much I took for granted my former mobility...to be able to just get up out of a chair and run to the kitchen or bathroom without thinking about it and trying to figure out the path or how to do the stairs...these are kinda beyond me now. Hell, I can't even just go get a glass of water because I can't carry it on crutches! argh.

And some days are better than others. Some days I'm all confident and calm - this is going to work out just fine, things aren't that bad: and some days are dark - fuck this, I don't want to work, I don't want to eat my lunch, I'm going to be stuck in the hated/stupid job once I DO heal....

I just want to walk again. And the leg cramps aren't helping.

3 comments:

Philosophic Bard said...

At least you're optimistic about it all.

Seriously: life is like the Olympics. There are events to be run, and not all of them will be your favorite. The best athletes have been conditioned to buckle down and give it their all. It just so happens you have a disability temporarily.
. . . not that you're in the Special Olympics . . .

Shit. This isn't coming out the way I wanted it to.

. . . get better soon.

Reya Mellicker said...

Rescue Remedy? Have you ever tried it? It's a Bach flower remedy, very gentle, but calming.

So sorry you're stuck in your room all day! As my friend sharon Austin would say, that ain't right!

Hope you're soon feeling much better. Sending bone knit energy in your direction.

wordwitch said...

hey Reya,

Hmm...I may just go ahead and get some of that....need something to ease the stress and stop worrying too much about the future...

Thanks.
M