This sucks...

Warning - this is another "pity party" post.....

Ok, this really sucks. Tomorrow is my birthday, and I'm home sick with a raging sinus infection that comes complete with a nasty, persistent cough. Not fair.

Add to that - I'm still stuck in the hated job. I've been searching for 6 months now, have had 3 really good interviews, but no offers. One place wanted me, but I couldn't take a $8,500 pay cut.

And actually....I don't know what I want to do. I've been in publishing now for 10+ years. I like dealing with words, but don't consider myself a writer anymore. I've been doing more project management recently - heck, I haven't written an article in over 6 years. And I don't want to be "only" a copy editor. What I'd really love to try, I can't afford to. Flying lessons cost money, they usually don't bring in money. And now that we have a mortgage, there's no hanging on my hubby's coattails even for a short time. I HAVE to bring in a certain $$ each month, which means trying something new and out of my current skill set is highly improbable.

I have a friend who is working on her Massage Therapists license while working elsewhere. She's at least working TOWARD her goal. I can't even figure out what goal to even try for.

And tomorrow's my birthday....and no one at work cares. Ye Gods that sounds pitiful...but when you want to fit into a team, when you're looking for SOME SORT OF FUN at work....it'd be nice to be recognized after being there for almost 9 months.